*the dance floor, the music, the moves.

2010-12-16T09:43:00.002+08:00

i am so so so SO SO tired ):

panicked yesterday because of tmr's paper, which im not prepared for yet (havent finished studying) and it's content heavy - psychology ):

so i slept late at 3plus am and woke up at 7am to drag myself to can A where i'm sitting at now to study. so tired ): but the only plus point is: managed to beat the rest to get good seats!

anyway,

i've started fantasizing (yes!) about what i'm going to do after exams! here is some:

1) club with the girls (wed hopefully!)
2)picnic with dear
3)watch Vampire diaries (heard alot about it, hot guys heh heh !)
4) swim&tan
5)go shopping (fareast,bugis)

and somanymany more! when i think of it i'll come back and edit the list.

im just so sick of studying.

anyway! im obsessed with this new song

it's like super cool and nonchalant . you know what i mean!

oh well, i'm buying a corset! yipee :D

i totally recommend this blogshop
http://trulyyours.sg ,
really nice and affordable lingerie/clothes/bikini & friendly owner!

love it loads!

oh damnit , looks like i have to get back to studying my ass off. so freaking tired ):

2010-12-13T14:35:00.004+08:00

i'm back at the same benches again, still trying to study (:

oh well, 1 exam down, 4 more to go! this week is hell week though, 3 papers (tues.wed.fri) & dear's birthday on sat !! yay (:

looking forward to the end of exams, but not particularly to the start of trainings again.lol.

anyway, sneak preview of wedding/casual shoot done a week ago(i think)

credits to intermodeling !

haha, not bad right(: i absolutely love gowns !

oh, and im looking forward to the shoot on sunday. loads of awesome ideas, lets hope i can deliver! corsets,stockings,violin .. ohhh (:

looking forward to celebrating dear's bday with him at traders hotel (high class dinner tgt), im such an awesome girlfriend, haha !

but till then, have to continue to torture myself with studies ):

help ):

2010-12-06T16:16:00.002+08:00

karl marx,sigmund freud, charles darwin, norbert wiener, claude shannon blahblahblah;
wonder if they knew that their amazingly brilliant works would be causing so much pain (to me & my fellow 207mates) years on ):

i'm currently sitting at can a, trying to mug. have been here since 10am, whoa! but now im sleepy and my butt hurts big time andANDand i feel fat . ugh.

no idea why i just dont seem to have the sense of urgency this time round. i really have to buck up bcos so much is on the line here.

felt like blogging suddenly, chanced upon fb page of someone i used to be close to, then hated and now - neutral with feelings of disgust.

quite sad how friendships form and dissipate so quickly.

even sadder how certain people are naturally not very nice, scathing & hurtful to be exact. but i guess all types of people exist.

3-4 months more before i'm free.

but for now; can't wait for exams to be over, for bangkok trip with my dearest (:

wish me luck , i gotta mug big time .

2010-11-26T18:45:00.003+08:00

chanced upon some blogs of my friends; made me realize a few things..

- i really have been neglecting people around me ):
- i really am lucky.

i guess everyone has their share of sadness, downtime.. but through it all, i must remember to be grateful because now, i am content. i have everything that i could possibly ask for.

so this is a big thank you to everyone.

those who made me feel less alienated in sch, those who believe in me, those who understand that they mean sth to me, my really loving family (despite our sarcastic front & all sometimes) and of course, to him.

happy belated 11th month. it's almost one year.. to think everyone thought we wouldnt last past 2 weeks. im just so glad that you are here.

am loving this song:

"if i die young", by The Band Perry. i love the cover done by Sam Tsui though.

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

i've had just enough time.

makes death feel peaceful&serene.

if i had to die young, i hope it would be as peaceful&serene as this song.

credits to candyyam photography as usual.

these photos just somehow fit my mood right now.

2010-11-24T15:59:00.007+08:00

the storm seems to be calming down; i guess that's good. but i'm learning to be cautious all the time.

Cheer has stopped for maybe a month? guess that's good cos now i can START STUDYING!

feeling less confident because i still have classes and can't solely focus on studying yet.

must start sleeping early & waking up early! HELP ME :D

starting to feel fat and more like a blob, maybe its psychological, but it's reallllyy depressing!
gonna go for a short run later heh.

in 206 now, completely clueless as usual. haha flunked my quiz.
"which is the first motion picture with sound?"
AHHHHHHHHH.
it was "The Jazz Singer" but OF COURSE i cldnt rmber ):

anyway, shoots have been stagnant lately, don't wanna think too much about it.
more think = more problems

pictures from recent shoots!

credits to Kok Wee (:

credits to my fave photographer Candyyam ! :D

hoping for more soon!
maybe doing flea market this weekend. SELL SELL SELL!
so i can buy more clothes.

hahaha.
i want iphone4. or iphone 5.

2010-11-11T09:46:00.002+08:00

you are just too set on your own way of thinking.

it's okay, because i will get stronger.

i can only go upwards from here.

watch me.

oh hey, fuck this.

2010-11-11T01:41:00.003+08:00

feeling sad/emo/depressed whateveryoucallit.

maybe its cause of the (little) alcohol i had, then again i was alr down before that.

shitimsuperfuckingemoandigottapickmyselfupandstopfeelingsorryfor

myselforwhateverthefuckimdoing.

HAHHHHHHHHHH

okay all out.

me&my hello panda will brave through this.

hellopanda ftw. (btw i only like the VANILLA ones, so there!)

2010-11-10T17:27:00.004+08:00

at south spine again, waiting for german class.

this week has been pretty slack for me cos;

i skipped a few lectures&some e learning stuff took place. yeeha!

had pasta cooked by dear again tday and spent the morning till noon lazing around like a pig ):

i swear, im getting more & more lazy!

starting to feel the heat; panicking a little for exams. STUDY girl! keep getting distracted by sleep,food,cheer&work. ): ):

anyway, work has been pretty good! here are some new pics that i totally love (:

love love love! awesome photos by m.fuzz|ee!

aching all over as normal, find myself dreaming of massage ! but lazy me is normally TOO LAZY to even travel out of NTU. sighhh..

still craving for carnivore, even though all i can eat there is the fish,pineapple&ham. but damn, its good. (:

still get affected by some people, but ohwell, must remind myself that

they aren't worth it.

its just a fact of life.

2010-11-08T10:18:00.003+08:00

barnum effects occur often, especially when people tend to predict/tell one's character/personality (eg HOROSCOPES). barnum effect: vague so that everyone can relate to it on some level.

damnit, i like reading horoscopes

damnit, i'm falling aslp in pysch lecture.

its 1020am NOW, and stupid dear only came over at 2 plus am (cos he was watching his beloved liverpool for hourssss ) and i only got to sleep at 3plus am ):

hello pimples&dark eye circles ):

ohOHoh; had pastamania's aglio olio last fri yumyum. LOVE IT! wanna learn how to make it soon!

went out with my family yesterday, zomg i am totally a mommy's girl. she spoilt me as usual, bought me a PRETTY bronze/gold/brown charles&keith bag, loads of groceries, contacts & insisted on giving me $$ (though i tried pushing it back to her a few times!).

love my family!

new craving: carnivore, eskimo, oio yogurt! (:

more lovely photos!

credits to S|eEpY photography :D

had another shoot on sunday and already one more EXCITING one lined up on sat!

cant wait:D

p.s; dont know why my nose is running like a tap now; rawr ):

2010-11-02T12:38:00.005+08:00

;life has been really messy lately, cheerwise, but oh well, seeing that this blog is strictly non-cheer related, it shall not be elaborated here.

cheer up cheer up cheer up.

two words; be strong.

on a lighter note;

german test tmr !! ahhh! (: must study hard.

really must make it a point to keep my studies in check so i won't regret in future.

modeling wise has been fun and lovely for me, lots of stuff to try and learn!

here are some snippets of my job so far (thanks to the lovely photographers!)

by candyyam photography

by simphony photography

by canonised photography

those are a few of my favorites!

haha, oh.. i have a craving for aglio olio from pastamania lately, but bf is too lazy to get out of NTU.

poor me!

last note;

if you keep backstabbing everyone around you, then one day you will find yourself all alone.

thats karma.

loves.

2010-09-29T16:19:00.001+08:00

i am so so so stressed !

Com206 assignment: i have NO idea how to work the amazing DSLR, stupid me

Com255 project: i don't knw what else to do.

Com207: my brain is overwhelmed.

hp101: ditto.

i am so screwed.

people, please tell me to study. really.

time

2010-09-23T10:13:00.002+08:00

With time, sometimes im not sure what life holds for me.

i don't want to just sweep past life and regret.

i want so many things, i want to be so many things & achieve more;

can i?

where do i go from now?what is enough?

paint my lips red, just for you

wouldn't it be nice if the world was pink & sweet?

just like in my dreams. (:

zzzzz

2010-09-21T11:57:00.001+08:00

Don't underestimate trust; without it, we are meaningless.

the more expectations i have, the more disappointed i am,

maybe i should let go.

it's a two way street. and i don't want to drive alone.

pretty

2010-05-29T15:17:00.000+08:00

i wanna be pretty! who doesnt; huh.

innocent

2010-04-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

From deviantart.

if only life could be this innocent.

cheer SNCC

2010-03-26T10:14:00.003+08:00

its friday again ; im back at the same benches i was at weeks ago.

weeks ago; yupp. it's been that long. so many things have passed (:

*SNCC; cheer

20th March 2010, one of my biggest challenges in life - completed.

it was a crazy day, full of nerves and energy. thank goodness for the wonderful outcomes . no matter what, ACES is and will always be the national champions. <3

now that cheer is over, it feels that a whole chunk of life is missing. and now we have to make the decision whether to move on, and fill that gap with sth else, or go back to cheer and start again.

tough choice.

but anyway;

*SCHOOL

is even crazier now. all the sh*t i've put off and classes i've skipped are coming back to haunt me ): overloaded with projects, assignments and quizzes (for lectures i have never attended)

still, i'm hopeful that i can pull through and do well this sem! haha let's go man!

discipline discipline discipline; i need to stop sleeping and start going for lectures !

*MISCELLANEOUS

seems like things are stabilizing with you; really hope that things will work out because i think this is worth it. thank you;

-the thought of someone leaving my life in less than a year is disheartening. things will be so different without her. but i guess if it makes her happy, it'll be for the best. I don't know if i can go on cheering with her gone, it's just different.

Love my family and besties, who have been there for me throughout. will spend more time with all of you! (:

i can do it!

p.s karma's a bitch; i hope you will get what you deserve right in your face one day. (:

cny + vday

2010-02-19T10:07:00.004+08:00

its 10am in the morning.. and i am in SCHOOL. ; sitting on a bench and trying to look busy and intelligent by typing furiously on my pretty macbook(pro) ;

LOL, why, oh why!

stupid me forgot that tutorial (9am) was cancelled this week, and so i was woken up at 730am (oh god;) , washed up and dragged myself to school, reached at 845am, went to the tutorial room and... realized that there was no tutorial for today.

so i have been sitting on the bench by my pathetic self :(

hur hur hur,

so ANYWAY, other than that annoying occurrence, CNY HOLIDAY IS OVER. wth. so life is going back to its crazy busy normal self.

CNY; was a pretty anti-climax affair, visiting two relative houses and getting minimal angpaos; but oh well. staying at home and slping was great, really, EXCEPT that i had a test on wed SO i had to spend CNY studying ugh, fml seriously.

VDAY; was cool + sweet, seriously (: baked extraaa sweet cupcakes and cookies for some people. haha; im so sweet right (: vday was a cozy quiet and non-crowded event, which is exactly what i wished for.

roses + pasta + dessert + walk along the Singapore River at Boat Quay = awesome.(: thanks.

CHEER; has officially started, and its crazier than ever. my ligament's giving me heaps of problems, even sitting down hurts. shit. trainings go all the way till almost midnight nowadays, one more month left!! bear with it! i really need to persevere + train hard! go aces!

STUDYING ; is officially fml fml fml fml, just had 2 quizzes and many more to come! projects/assignments are piling up and i have to fight the urge to skip classes everyday. i really have to discipline myself and study or i won't be able to maintain my grades.

*Mr Ng just asked me back to JJC in march to inspire the J2s to study hard and do well for A levels. hahaha, somehow the idea of ME inspiring people is hilarious to my friends. I WONDER WHY. come on!! model student here -.- hahahahaha (:

gonna make cheesecake over the weekend; oreo cheesecake, whee!

weekend is coming. i need sleep and preferably a 72 hour Sunday(:

LOVES.

the man who can't be moved

2010-02-09T16:54:00.003+08:00

RAWR, i am in com208 lecture NOW (seems like whenever i am in com208 lecture, i am free enough to blog) ahahahaha.

bad me.

schwise- starting to go for lessons, still missing a few lessons now and then but it's looking all good!

i have totally no idea what's going on in classes.. haha i pay attention though! projects are starting.. i really better buck up!

ALL YOU ACES PEOPLE BETTER START STUDYING HARD OKAY! IF NOT YOU DIE - D.A.I !!!

cheer;

routine's coming out.. don't know if i'm thankful that there is sth clearer to work towards to, or frustrated cos that's all we are going to be doing now onwards. but oh well, as always, suck thumb lah. ):

Leg's still injured, apparently i damaged the ligament and injured the nerves. then cos i left it alone too long it got worse and got swelling (shui-zhong) inside. hahaha and a whole string of chinese words that the physician said but didn't make sense to me. LOL.

JIAYOU JIAYOU !

this is the part that i must grow stronger, physically and emotionally.

because what doesn't break you, only makes you stronger. (:

all those miscellaneous stuff;

finally had the STEAMBOAT! took loads of crazy pictures and watched peter chao ( guys, check him out on youtube: ridiculously funny)

;went shopping at SPOTLIGHT;ps today with xt,char,amanda,daniel! so cool. it's been a while since i got out of NTU.. even though it was a rushed outing, it was a nice getaway(: bought loads of stuff!! (i must stop spending money, okay!) plus treated myself to two nice books. hahaha.

CNY is coming, can't wait for the few days of holidays. yay! haha and vday is coming too. kinda looking forward to it(:

hope it turns out sweet and memorable (:

need to shop for CNY clothes!! hahah and spend more monnneyyy :D

am loving this song;

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

its called the man who can't be moved :D >

saw this post on someone's fb status and i absolutely love it;

"The fact that you cannot kiss your elbow is enough to make you realize that some things seem to be so close, yet they are bound to be beyond your reach."

LOVES

HO !!

2010-01-29T14:26:00.007+08:00

how siann; its lessons AGAIN. im sitting in CAN A waiting for biz law lecture. sighhhhs.

HO cheer is finally over! seems like all those weeks of frustration and hard work has finally come to a close. quite disappointing to see how much more could have been easily done, but was overlooked. oh well! (: good job hall 12 ! it was kinda nerve wracking, but at the end of it all, it was fun and i'm glad it's over!

me & shawn; pageant partners + cheer pair :D

youjun + me; my hall 12 base!! (:

Hall 12 let's go!

goodness knows how many lessons i have missed.. darn!

no more missing lessons from now on okay! haha. and no more swearing! yeah!

kinda lagging behind in my schwork; its quite worrying, esp when i think abt having to maintain my grades and all. sheesshhh. i must be a nerd, seriously!

whack me the next time i skip classes okay!

haha

cheer-wise, training is starting again, this time, for real! cheerobics is ard the corner, in march, and i'm already starting to feel the pressure. keep your fingers crossed, everyone! let's push on (:

i must not be easily demoralized, because life goes on, and you can't control what happens.. you can only control how you react to what happens (:

so let's go! i need to gain back my confidence, esp in partner stunting. jiayou!!

****

steamboat this sun at my place for aces juniors! can't wait (: looks like its gonna be fun and nwahhing, a whole day without cheer! hahah yay!

i will start planning more steamboat sessions + housewarming for my babes, schmates and other friends!

***

recently someone asked me if i was happy. i told him i was contented. and he asked me if it was enough.

is it?

sometimes people search for happiness till they forget to be content, whereas others are too busy being contented that they forgo the chance at happiness. so which category would you rather be in?

LOVES.

sleepy!

2010-01-20T15:28:00.002+08:00

currently in com208 lecture; haha.. and i'm horribly sleepy.

seems like that is the only word to describe me nowadays; sleepy sleepy sleepy sleepy !!

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these few days have been/ are going to be a real test of endurance for me; cheer training is intensifying, branching into PT (say ughhhhh) which means running, jumping, weights, core training. and after that, i have hall cheer training , which is quite draining and sometimes annoying. ):

still, we have one week left to hall cheer competition and i really hope for the best! everyone keep your fingers crossed okay! (:

thanks to yanheng for coming down to hall 12 trainings and ensuring that i am still alive :D

lots of things i need to work on, and strive on harder. this is impossible without tears , pain and blind determination, i feel . oh well; though i love cheer, there really are times i feel too overwhelmed by it, what wouldnt i do for one day of relaxation and fun without cheer. arghhh.

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managed to get almost all the courses i want, haha, though i embarrassed myself in lecture yesterday by screaming a short (but sadly, distinct) "YES!" when i finally managed to add the course i want.

its already getting hard to stay disciplined and not skip lectures, but .. jia you! we can do it (:

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missing thailand, RSU, again, and the people there. wish i could read thai to know what is going on in their lives! google translator doesn't really do a very good job :D still, i'm dreading the day i would have to let go.

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because you have too many hearts.

is there really true love in this world ?

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Love this song, so sick by ne-yo.

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need to pay attention. more importantly;

i need to sleep!

haha ,loves (:

loves (:

2010-01-17T00:01:00.002+08:00

to those who have been my rock throughout this period , and have not given up on me, who have stood firmly believing in me,

thank you.

to these few especially, i cannot articulate how much you mean to me, and i hope these few words can start to help you understand that despite my busy schedule and insane life, i care for you too. though i dont show it as much as i would love to,

you are really important to me. and i want to be there for you. (:

yanheng ; - the one whom i would trust my life with. my best friend. alot of who i am now, is because of you

xingtong;- the one who i know will be there. despite all that shit, i know you really do care.

sarah;jiamin;jehanne;xinyi - my beloved babes, thanks for taking the effort to meet up with me despite my busy schedule. i love you girls. you girls are permanent in my life!

andrew; -my best friend. we're distancing, and its painful. i hope we can pull it back tgt. you really mean alot.

oxy; - for letting me know now and then that you care, im grateful.

sont; - for your time, effort and patience. i really do appreciate it. everything takes time.

thank you.

I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!

(end of mini-shout out!!)

*****

trying to update my blog a little more often, prevent it from becoming like a graveyard or sth (:

i am actually unpacking my room now, haha , of course, i stopped halfway.

me and packing absolutely does not mix well. get it? :D

nevertheless, i shall press on.. someday. ((: LOL!

unpacking all the things that i threw into boxes made me face certain things i did my best to forget.

two years worth of memories, happiness, pain, really stabs me hard over and over again.. just when i thought i might be able to move on.

i wonder how you are doing, if you still hate me, if i would ever find someone who loved me like you did, or if i could ever find someone who would accept me the way i am. i wonder if you have found someone who is better than me for you, if she would make you happier than i did?

other than these bouts of emo-ing periods (which i am SO entitled to); life is still quite dandy.

enough of emo-ness

*****

one week plus left to interhall cheer competition!! ahhhh. starting to feel the heat and pressure. really need alot of effort, hard work, time to get through this.

im horrified at the number of lectures i skipped this week, (which is the first week, may i add)

i solemnly promise to not skip lectures (: wahaha!

*******

gonna treat myself to stuff from victoria secrets. haha I SO DESERVE IT OKAY! so yupp!

i need to sleep.

Loving this song, you guys shld take a listen , Two is Better than One.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

14jan2010

2010-01-14T10:10:00.003+08:00

blogblogblogblog.

it's been crazybusy lately, seriously.

cheer-wise (and that's practically the entire part of my life);

interhall cheer comp is coming ,27thJAN, and it's getting intense! cheer is almost everyday for hall, though for some reason it ends at 11 plus 12 , good and bad i guess, can't help stressing about it.

go hall 12 ! :D all the best yeah!

Aces! zomg. aces is just so typically aces. cheer wise, all the other nonsense aside, it's just starting to get MORE intense :( the japan team, Braves, came down to train us over these few days. they are ZAI ! all those twists and tosses ! inspiration!

i'm starting to realize the importance of training on my own, let's go!

*people believe what they want to believe. so you really have to do whatever you can, to the best possible. only then will you have no regrets!

rawrrrrr.

school-wise;

starWARS again! so sick and tired of stars! i shld be taking on 17 AUs this sem, compared to the insanity of 22 AUs last sem. this sem with cheerobics and all.... cross our fingers yah!

if anyone can help me get COM226 or GV17, i'll be eternally grateful :D

its actually lecture time now, and i'm really trying my best to stay awake. not a good start (:

discipline!

********

come on everyone, let's press on alright!

and to those people who apparently disgust the hell out of me (if you ever see this), get a life. trying to make others look bad apparently does not make you look good. karma's a bitch, remember that (:

*******

missing RSU again!

its 2010 ! zomg !

need to unpack my room for long awaited steamboat.

LOVES.

2010

2010-01-03T18:28:00.003+08:00

hey :D

its nearing the end of holidays , and i am absolutely dreading the start of school! haha, its gonna be a crazzzyyyy sem, with cheerobics and studies and all. i really have no idea how i spent my holidays! where did all the time go !!

seems like life is revolving ard cheer now. lol! well, hope everything goes well.

life is just dandy at the moment, nth too bad, nth too good, guess i should be contented!

really miss my girls!! all those planned outings/eating sessions/clubbing sessions that failed (or i ps.ed, sorry!!) :( :( hahah. feels like i haven't spent quality time with those people who mean the most to me (:

spent my new year + christmas baking, haha so loser , at least i made delicious cookies ( would be more loser if i spent new yr and christmas baking yucky cookies right...)

things to do before school starts:

1. write a 2010 resolution list

2. pack my new room + fix up my pole

3. hold housewarmings (steamboatsssss)

4. meet up with my babes

5. shopping for new clothes!

6. cut my hair.. again

7. do sth crazy

8. do sth relaxing

9. do sth non-cheer related

10. just do sth.

hahahahaha.

anyway... AIR CON IN HALL 12 BEGINS ON 4TH JANUARY!!! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. take that, people of hall 3 and hall 16 !! I AM GONNA HAVE AIRCONNNNN :D

Loves.

updates!

2009-12-31T01:36:00.002+08:00

its been ages since i last blogged, and well, loads of things have happened since then.

feelings - it's been quite messy, esp emotional affairs, and sometimes i feel quite worn out.

now that certain things have been decided, i hope things will work out and everything will settle down. i hope i made the right choice though.. sometimes i really doubt myself and it gets me down.. that sudden feeling of helplessness. oh well.

a little emo at the moment, think sth happened. knew it would come sooner or later, but still hoped it wouldn't. now that it did, i dont know if i should pursue or leave it be. maybe letting go is the best. a little achy feeling there. :(

cheer - other than that, rsu trip (to thailand for cheer training) was a blast, draining yet enriching. made new friends and learnt new things.. im not sure now that everything that happened is entirely good. but whatever happened has happened. so there.

training for hall cheer and aces has been quite demanding lately, keep feeling perpetually tired!

injured myself a little , not good not good! fighting ! lol!

studies - gpa results are out. did borderline. any lower and my scholarship would be revoked most probably. loads of stress there.. no shit man.

what else? shitty tired now, but waiting for laundry to be done!

hope tmr is a better day.

thailand(:

2009-12-15T16:34:00.002+08:00

quick update, it's been a long time !! (:

things are getting quite busy, with cheer, cheer and CHEER!

hahah, it's a bit more focused now that I dont have to worry about studies, so i guess that's a good thing..

*on the down side.. there's some registration thing TOMORROW that i have no clue what is it about. apparently we must choose some GER-PE thing and rank from 1-5 but arghhh! i really don't get it! must call zohan. hahahahah.

*flying to thailand on thursday, looking forward to it but also abit apprehensive, not quite sure what to expect. after the major injury yesterday, everyone's quite shaken. it made me realize how easily we could be injured badly. ): ): pinyuan, get well soon okay!!

*just moved house and i LOVE my new house + new room! though it is slightly in a mess now because i am too lazy to unpack (typical me) but still! it's awesome. gonna hold housewarmings when i get back from thailand. steamboat anyone? :D

here's a nice picture from deviantart! i love roses. (: i think they hold so many different meanings to different people <3

it feels like i am going to step back into the whole messy quicksand when

i just managed to get out. i have no clue whether what i am doing is right.

so i'm not stepping in, not until i am sure. i think right now, i am satisfied with life. (:

anyway everyone, do visit http://michicaloves.livejournal.com and SHOP!! spread the word around!

LOVES<3

HL815 exam

2009-11-26T12:16:00.004+08:00

i refuse to need someone.

it's time i learnt that there will never be someone who will be there .

HL815 is today! ugh, wish me luck man. what's with all the expressionism, naturalistic, literary realism, what is life and what isn't life. LOL

. i gotta feeling that sometimes the writers are just "inspired" to write things, and here we are trying to decipher bits and pieces and making mountains out of molehills! ridiculous eh! one day i'm going to write a chim and serious poetry or sth that means absolutely nth, then hope that some teacher makes her students analyze it like crazy!! hahahaha. :D

someone stop me from playing lame games on my mac :(

love this picture from deviantart. its so melancholy ..

before the storm

2009-11-24T22:23:00.002+08:00

i guess that's it.

im really sorry.

Before the Storm - Miley Cyrus/Jonas Brothers

I know this isn't what I wanted
I never thought it'd come this far
Just thinkin' back to where we started
And how we lost all that we are.

We were young and times were easy
But I could see it's not the same
I'm standing here but you don't see me
I'd give it all for that to change

And I don't want to lose her
Don't wanna let her go

I'm standing out in the rain
I need to know if it's over
Cause I will leave you alone

Flooded with all this pain
Knowing that I'll never hold her

Like I did before the storm
Before the storm

With every strike of lightning
Comes a memory that lasts
And not a word is left unspoken
As the thunder starts to crash
Maybe I should give up.

I'm standing out in the rain
I need to know if it's over
Cause I will leave you alone

Flooded with all this pain
Knowing that I'll never hold her
Like I did before the storm

Trying to keep the lights from going out
And the clouds from ripping out my broken heart
We always say,
A heart is not a whole
Without the one who gets you through the storm

Standin' out in the rain
Knowing that it's really over
Please don't leave me alone.
I'm flooded with all this pain,
Knowing that I'll never hold you
Like I did before the storm

Like I did before,
The storm.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

santa

2009-11-22T01:31:00.003+08:00

love this song :D (just heard it today!)

Santa Can You Hear Me - Britney Spears (:

Last night I took a walk in the snow,

Couples holdin hands, places to go,

Seems like everyone but me is in love

Santa can you hear me?

I signed my letter that I sealed with kiss,

I sent it off, it just said this:

"i know exactly what I want this year"

Santa can you hear me?

I want my baby, baby

I want someone to love me, someone to hold,

Maybe maybe,

He'll be all my own in a big red bow

Santa can you hear me?

I have been so good this year

And all I want is one thing,

Tell me my true love is here

He's all I want, just for me

Underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here

Santa that's my only wish this year

Christmas eve, I just can't sleep

Would I be wrong for takin a peek

'cause I heard that you're comin to town

Santa can you hear me?

I really hope that you're on your way

With something special for me in your sleigh

Oh please make my wish come true,

Santa can you hear me?

I want my baby, baby

I want someone to love me, someone to hold

Baby, baby, baby

We'll be all alone under the mistletoe

Santa can you hear me?

I have been so good this year,

All I want is one thing

Tell me my true love is here

He's all I want, just for me

Underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here

Santa that's my only wish this year

I hope my letter reaches you in time, (oh yeah)

Bring me love I can call all mine (oh yeah)

'cause I have been so good this year, (oh oh)

Can't be alone under the mistletoe,

He's all I want in a big red bow.

Santa can you hear me?

I have been so good this year

And all I want is one thing

Tell me my true love is near

He's all I want, just for me

Underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here,

Santa that's my only wish this year

Ahh ahh ahh

Oh santa, can you hear me...?

Oh santa, well he's all I want

Just for me, underneath my christmas tree

I'll be waiting here,

Santa that's my only wish this year

Santa that's my only wish this year.

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

gonna sleep and study tmr! :D

wish me luck for exams!

LOVES!

emos

2009-11-18T19:08:00.007+08:00

exams are coming! gosh, don't even feel prepared at all, but i just want it over and done with!

not doing too well so far, mostly b and b+ s :( so really must put all i've got into this final lap for the sem! hah! i can do it man :D

alot of things to think about, but i have to sort it through myself, and maybe with enlightenment from some others. it all boils down to this after all. Have a heavy feeling in my heart, that cloud of gloominess . kinda (slightly) emo now, but i guess it can't be helped.

Went with JJ to his NDU diver grad dinner last sat, it was fun! haha, saw videos of the poor divers getting abrasion and bonding (ahem) with each other. had loads of fun and good food! had to dress up and all (still looked like a little girl though, lol) , but it was a nice break from studying! haha(:

here are some "zi lian" pictures showing off my wonderfully noob skills at photoshop as well! haha.(:

yupp(: anyway, just for the record,

I HATE MUGGING.

and i just indulged in chocolate therapy today (things dont sound so good eh)

damn. gotta run tmr then. (:

ohoh, i really love this facial scrub from bodyshop , awesome :D redwine = fab (:

also starting to love the song "Meet me halfway" by black eyed peas. :D guess im a little laggy huh!

xlb(:

2009-11-09T16:26:00.007+08:00

its 4.26pm and im in COM 205 lecture.. again. (not by choice, but kinda have to do this evaluation thing -.-)

starting to feel a little stressed for the upcoming exams (2 weeks) and tmr's 203 test! zomg, the freaking pile of readings could fuel an entire barbecue for 6 hours lah. wish me luck okay?

cheer is over (for exams) but i can't seem to get my mind off the cheer-mentality. that's not too good. STUDY!!!

ANYWAY, had an amazing awesome time at crystal jade steamboat XIAO LONG BAO buffet with dan, z and kb! ahhhhhhh. other than the fact that the stupid people took so long to bring the xlb, it was awesome.

amazing daniel without xlb. :D

xlb has arrived

THE xlb (:

steamboat was awesome too, hahaha. definitely going back! after that night, we had new nicknames,

dan - xiao long bao

kb - pig skin

z - small snail

wahahahaha. not telling you what it means. (:

gonna leave lecture early, to head over to "ma kuang" , my new best friend. sorta sprained my ankle .. hahah. need to get the new insurance soon! (:

anyway, i really need to study. been getting b+ averages (not good!), must really work hard and stop sleeping if i wanna hold on to my scholarship ! argh.

yup! focus now, no time for play or matters of the heart. press on! jiayou all you fellow cs-ians/cheerleaders (:

remedy;little boots.

2009-10-30T00:56:00.002+08:00

feel kinda conflicted today;

how do you know if you made the right choice?

i don't like looking back once i've decided to step forward. i can't. but i need to know that going forward is the best thing to do.

it comes back to haunt me once in a while.

i know it's hard on you, but i need time. i'm sorry.

today's a little frustrating; nevertheless, i know there's no point being stuck here.

am loving this song :D

No more poison

Killing my emotion

I will not be frozen

Dancing is my remedy, remedy, oh

Move while you're watching me

Dance with the enemy

I've got a remedy

MySpace Playlist at MixPod.com

gonna start using my shiny new iphone soon :D

wanna spend more time with my babes! <3

LOVES

kitty!

2009-10-27T10:07:00.003+08:00

okay, havent really updated for a while(:

now im in COM203 lecture and i am dying. honestly.

zombified and utterly tired! :(

hahah! anyway, just to let everyone know, i got my iphone! yeah! (: after much deliberation, deep thought and whining, i decided to get an iphone instead of a prada 2 phone. o.O so say hello to my shiny new white 16GB iphone 3GS! (:

im not gonna start using it yet cos im kinda lazy to do all the transfer of data, downloading of apps, plus im still waiting for someone to get an iphone too (:

pretty stressed out recently, think i took too much onto my plate, but thats kinda normal (and stupid) in evan-world. so yeah :(

EVAN'S COMMITMENTS :

1.aces training (mondays,wednesdays,fridays,saturdays)

2.Hall cheer (thursdays)

3.Hall DnD main comm

4.Hall FOC subcomm.

5.Academics (scholarship

+ 22 AUs)

6.Dance classes (saturdays,sundays)

plus all the little day-to-day extras. (:

insane huh! wish me luck okay?

if you see me, whack my head and tell me to study okay? (:

just sth i need to address:

just because I'm busy and doing my own stuff doesn't mean that im heartless and cold. 2 years of so much emotions cannot be forgotten s

o easily. it meant so much to me, but now that it is over, don't judge me to say that i didn't care, or that i took it lightly. you wouldn't know. i'm moving on, im still hurting, but i'm stepping forward. understand?

To the people who have been there for me, cheering me up, taking care of me and being part of my life,

thank you

*my babes,girls, friends, you.

sth nice from deviantart again;

I WANT A KITTEN!!! haha. or a goldfish. preferably sth cuter than patches (hall 10 cat;LOL)

LOVES!

HL815

2009-10-21T15:28:00.004+08:00

its 3.29pm and i'm sitting in LT3 with my beloved macbook(thank goodness it is fully charged).

guess why? yes .. its HL815.

honestly i think i'm gonna have to S/U this elective, come on! haha. i have NO clue what is going on in class. Apparently we just finished watching anime to show how gender is expressed / society views gender expression blah blah. o.O

anyway, i am in a pickle! (haha cute saying for "im in a dilemma" right?)

HELP!

yes! i absolutely can't make up my fickle mind over iphone 3Gs and Prada 2 ! haha, I am so easily persuaded that I can't make up my mind and stick with that decision for more than 2 days. bad huh!

so if any of you know which one is better, let me know ya?

school work is ... like a wave. keeps rising and threatens to crash over my head, yet I'm just SO lazy to get my ass off and complete some work.

my to-do list;

1. COM205 group project (individual slides)

2. COM204 assignment (reply that darn complaint letter)

3.Hp102 group project (i'm sorry, i have no idea what is going on)

4.COM201 mid terms (next week!!)

5. COM203 readings (you wouldn't believe the amount of paper used to print all those out)

6.HP102 lectures (which i missed and now trying desperately to catch up..)

This is an equation I made up;

stats - (use of graphic calculator) + (all those freaking tables&formula) = suicide.

ugh! i need to start using my brain!

LOL, sometimes i really feel that my brain goes on sudden vacation trips quite regularly, leaving my poor head quite empty. but oh well, (:

anyway, i'm still coughing quite badly (embarrassing when it happens in the middle of lecture cos it sounds like a choking gorilla) and drowsy constantly from all my medicine. so i'm hopefully excused from PT today, though i'll still go for training.

*today is yanheng's last training with us before he goes to do his lasik! GOOD LUCK MY FAVVVVE BASE! TAKE CARE OKAY?

so yupp; nth else interesting going in my life.

just a few shout-outs to some people;

-SCOTTO peeps; sorry i ps-ed supper that night, really miss hanging out with you guys. lets meet up and chill out soon okay(:

-Amanda + Joelynn; nnneeed to meet up soon, :( miss you babes very very very much!

-sarah; jiamin; jehanne; xinyi ; <3>

-z : thanks for everything + that awesome cake (:

no sentimentality yah, just realized how little time I am spending with the people who are important to me <3

okay, back to the film about Leonard Zelig that HL815 is currently screening!

LOVES

Spotlight;

2009-10-20T09:44:00.004+08:00

hello(:

im in COM203 now!! ugh, omg! haha. today andrew and kenneth pon-ded lecture, ps-ing me :( oh well!!

anyway, im still sick, went to my GP over the weekend and got diagnosed with throat infection, its SOOO annoying because i keep coughing non-stop. tiring lah, even my ABS hurt!! haha.

yesterday went to training, first and BAZGYM then normal training! BAZGYM was FUN!!! haha. we played(i mean, trained) on the trampoline, and learnt the basics of back-hand spring or sth like that, and it was a great and fun workout! after that, training proceeded as normal! did stunts, (extension-pop-reload-elevator) then my team progressed to... extension-pop reload-elevator three times consecutively! WHOA! poor poor bases were so tired out!

went crazy shopping over the weekend too, went with z to bugis street (spent about $70 plus) then went out with my mommy, who spent a bomb on new clothes for me! thanks mommy! (: bought a few dresses, which i RARELY wear and guess what? im wearing dress today! edwin + oxy keeps asking if im going on a hot date later.. sorry people, no i'm not! haha. felt like dressing up! haha.

lots of things to do! so MANY readings!(yes its COM203 AGAIN), lotsa projects (sorry people, have been a little MIA lately) and tutorials to catch up on!! plus training! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i will pay attention to lectures (even com203) from tmr onwards! today is still fb + blog in lecture day! hahahaha.

got lotsa new songs! thanks to chris and his awesome website.. hahaha

anyway, got hooked on this song, though its not exactly new! haha. love the chill-out beats and groooove in this song.

"Spotlight" -by ne-yo

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

yupp! so that's about it for now, really am bored out of my mind!!! HELP!

i must study study study! hahaha.

here's a nice pic from deviantart:

pretty huh? (:

p.s; to all my babes and <3-ed>

LOVES

all the right moves don't mean a perfect dance-

sexy voice (:

2009-10-16T13:45:00.005+08:00

hello!(

today is FRI! which means --> weekends coming! yay!

this week has been a pretty slack week for me, mc-ed on wed (missed lectures & training), skipped lecture yest (thanks to mr. kenneth foo chi loong) and skipped lecture today (that's all me, lol, by the time i woke up, lecture was over a long time ago!) hahahah.

im still a good girl though! (:

my voice is gone, still have to go training today though, dont wanna lag behind TOO much. shit! haha. so yup, cross your fingers and hope all those medicine the NTU doctor gave me works o.O

life's pretty boring, revolving around the same things - studies,cheer,studies,cheer,studies... you get it. haha. but i just signed my death wish --> signed up for FOC subcomm and DnD maincomm! going to DIE when all the work starts piling in, but oh well, if i survive, i'll be damn proud.

cut my hair again yest, haha, seems like its getting shorter and shorter, but oh well! i like it short (: oooh(:

met my beloved babes yesterday to eat... DIN TAI FUNG again! yay! didnt get to eat xiao long bao though, sarah ordered some prawn thing. haha. it was good though! yay! i miss you babes; i hardly get to spend any time with them , sad :( we photobooth-ed at din tai fung, grinning into my lovely mac, causing everyone around us to stare and look at us like we are complete idiots. haha, it was entertaining though!

(us; a relatively nice photo! i <3>

(ultimate unglam at Din Tai Fung; couldnt stop sniggering while taking these photos)

anyway; looking forward to the weekend, to study, spend some quality time with my family and friends, go for dance classes and chill!

i'm a pretty contented girl; (:

but if i had to choose between all or nth; right now i would choose nth.

LOVES

fire.

2009-10-14T09:48:00.006+08:00

hey(:

i'm currently in lecture, com203 LOL. and before you shake your finger at me and go "or hor.." , i HAVE been paying attention (:

as i've always said,

me=good girl ! :D

anyway, haven't been feeling well since yesterday. came down with a fever yest, with bad throat, headaches and nausea.. :(

gonna see a doctor later, see if i still can make it for training today!

feeling a bit stressed out lately, cos i haven't really been studying.. i know i have to start studying, but just can't find the energy and time to do so! darn. i seriously need to wake up.

anyway, this is my current fb status "true friends don't judge you; so sorry, you're off my list".

i'll leave its interpretation to your imagination (:

i don't think i'm really affected by it, it just annoys me a little. Like how you thought someone could be a potential friend, confidant, or sth to you, and then you realize suddenly that he/she's probably not what you thought he/she was like. but i guess it happens all the time right?

i'm not totally nonchalant about it either, but i know that there are more important things than a possible lost friendship. I need to get my priorities and life on the right track. too many things are at stake.

people tell you not to play with fire, cos you just might get burnt.

but if you don't take the risk, you might never be able to enjoy that warmth & beauty.

i'm not playing; i'm just not ready, and i'm not going to pretend i am.

LOVES.

p.S! all those reading this; if you see me, tell me to get my head into those notes and books! ty (:

found this on deviantart; really portrays that type of raw beauty; sth hauntingly beautiful.

facts of life.

2009-10-13T01:52:00.003+08:00

hey (:

now's the end of the day, after training and all, so its quite shag. will keep this short(:

sth i re-realized today:

its time to grow up. not everyone is simple as they look.

the more you care,the more expectations you will have, the more hurt/disappointed you can be.

so sometimes its best to choose not to care.

i know it sounds really cynical & emo or whatever you might call it, but it is an undeniable fact of life. i really should learn to be more guarded.

other than the not-so-gentle reminder of those facts, it was a pretty okay day today! tiring though. really must start studying hard!!!

no more slacking!

loves!

bday(: <3

2009-10-11T22:34:00.015+08:00

heys!(:

today is post birthday day- a slightly disorientated day for me. hahaha.(:

anyway this is how i spent my 19th birthday(:

Pre-birthday:

z, kb, dan baked a brownie cake for me! so sweet right! it was quite hilarious thinking of those three big guys in the kitchen messing up the WHOLE place! but the brownie was surprisingly nice and sweet (too much chocolate!!!!hahaha) , so thank you guys! really appreciated it! z,kb,dan,chris,siying came to surprise me with the nice chocolatey brownie cake! yum!

cheered me up alot cause i was emo-ing...

birthday part 1;

ACES.

went out with ACES to sentosa(ACES OUTING). oh man! it was really a DIFFERENT kind of experience. we played stunts in the water (drank alot of sea water,ugh, through my nose!) yuucckks. haha. but that wasnt the worst part.

ohmygoodness man. one of the first times i was thrown into the water... my bikini shifted. UGH. okay. those reading this, PLEASE DO NOT try to imagine. the worst thing is, i had totally no idea. having been dunked/thrown into the water (not very gently too, i might add) i stood up sputtering water and when my vision focused, i realized some people (no names yah) were looking a little weirdly at me, and somehow they motioned to me to adjust my bikini. ughhhhh. haha. i was so freaking embarrassed i screamed and plunged into the water, adjusted my bikini, then went over to xingtong and the seniors, who told me (huihui) that it happens all the time. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

okay! so, deleting that part from my memory, the outing was really fun! the sun came out halfway and thanks to heidi's suntan lotion, we managed to tan a llliiitttle bit (: doing toss-to-hands, basket-toss, shouldersits, weird-stunts-which-have-no-name, playing ball (with a coconut), playing frisbee, pigging out on sinful stuff, and nwah-ing.. it really was a good day out!!

(more pictures on fb!)

birthday part 2;

DINNER (:

so anyway, after that, went to orchard to buy shoes and had dinner at bugis with z. ate at HIP DINER USA.. had alot alot alot of food. hope i dont grow fat!

walked around and talked after that, then i left to meet sarah(babe)

thank you loads,for everything you've done...

birthday part 3;

PARTAYY at phuture!

phuture was awesome-no other words to describe it. Guest DJ (forgot his name) was insanely good! we were so damn high on the dance floor. went with: sarah,xinyi,paul,bryan,bel,zhiming(:

alcohol count: 1 glass of vodka lime.

result: puked 5 times.

damn. haha. this is slightly embarrassing. oh well. felt loads better after puking though. so the night was good! danced with friends and all. the rest drank alcohol like crazy, they drank flaming lambo, shots, normal glasses of drinks, jugs and whatever they could buy/get. lol.

super fun! haha! thanks everyone for partying with me and being so much fun! THANKYOU!

sarah babe and me(:

one of these is the glass of vodka lime that killed me.

flaming lambos.

our bodyguards for the night (:

reached home at 5 plus, slept at 6, missed my first dance lesson (shit). woke up damn late,went for project meeting and then went home.

post birthday;

FAMILY

i <3>

poor them waited till 12am to surprise me when i come home (i didnt come home, shit!!) so we celebrated today, and they brought me to some hotel to eat!! yay. had sinful food, ice-cream, and all those! my bro bought me a hard-drive (yay!) and my parents told me to tell them what i want! what should i get?! haha *evil laughs* hahaha.

okay! so thats about it. took me SO long to type this post cos i was updating fb at the same time! haha. oh well! im 19!! omg! still cant believe it. i think have the mentality that im like.. 17 years old. time to grow up!

gonna think of a list of resolutions for my life as a grown up 19 year old girl! haha. wish me luck.

after ALL that fun and partying..
school starts tmr.

shit.

loL! LOVES! thanks everyone once again!

I Could Get Used to This - the veronicas

2009-10-09T01:40:00.005+08:00

THE VERONICAS- I COULD GET USED TO THIS;

You make me breakfast in bed

When I'm mixed up in my head

You wake me with a kiss

I could get used to this

You think I look the best

When my hair is a mess

I can't believe you exist

I could get used to this

Because I know you're too good to be true

I must have done something good to meet you

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand

When I freak you understand

There is not a thing you miss

And I could get used to this

I'm feeling it comin' over me

With you it all comes naturally

Lost the reflex to resist

And I could get used to this

You love the songs I write

You like the movies I like

There must be some kind of twist

But I could get used to this

You kiss me listen to me when I'm depressed

It doesn't seem to make you like me less

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand

When I freak you understand

There is not a thing you miss

And I could get used to this

I'm feeling it comin' over me

With you it all comes naturally

Lost the reflex to resist

And I could get used to this

If there's a dark side to you I haven't seen it

Every good thing you do feels like you mean it

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand

When I freak you understand

There is not a thing you miss

And I could get used to this

I'm feeling it comin' over me

With you it all comes naturally

Lost the reflex to resist

And I could get used to this

'Cause you wrote my name across your hand

When I freak you understand

There is not a thing you miss

And I could get used to this

You make me breakfast in bed

When I'm mixed up in my head

You wake me with a kiss

And I could get used to this

----------------------------------------------------

Let me get used to this; it takes time (:

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

masquerade

2009-10-08T16:30:00.003+08:00

hello(:

im surprisingly free today! it feels realllly good, to be without the hassle and rushing of trying to complete overwhelming things that seem never-ending. yay!

slept really long yesterday, guess i needed those hours of sleep badly. slept from 6 plus pm to 11.30pm, then took a bath and slept again from 130am till about 8am! good huh? thank goodness for that!

today, like i said, is pretty good. went for dental early, z accompanied me there lol! if he didnt, i probably would have been late and skipped lecture again. but well, i made it to lecture! had to spend $18 on a cab back though ( i really need to start a "cab diary"; i think all my money is disappearing there! bad bad bad!) haha, after that, had project meeting and all. so yupp, currently in my room, blasting the music to attempt to drown out the sounds of drilling (ugh)

reread that letter. quite emo for awhile after that. knowing that something you thought that would last is already gone. it's really too late. all those ideals, those wants, those hopes and dreams, were destroyed.

When you tear up a piece of paper, no matter how you paste it back together, it will never be the same.

if i pretended everything was okay, would things be back to normal? all those things you said, why now? why not then? when i pleaded with you, why not then? i take my share of responsibility, i don't blame you, i really don't. but it really is too late. im not indifferent. it hurts me too. but i'm not turning back.

yupp. that was my emo-rant. lol. anyway, found a nice song today! by backstreet boys : masquerade

check it out!

"yearning, i'm yearning for the one to steal my eyes, wanna play in this game of disguise..its a masquerade"

it's a bit like life isn't it? everybody has their masks on, you don't see the real them till they take off that mask.

LOVES (:

done with HL815!!

2009-10-07T12:21:00.003+08:00

hey(:

missed lecture today :( stayed up till 3 plus 4 to finish HL815 (damnit yes! im done with you!) and totally concussed out after that. yesterday was extremely exhausting, slept in the mrt standing up (nearly fell a couple of times, missed my stop) and in the buses (almost missed my stop) and the taxi, and on the table (no doubt during HL815). didnt expect myself to miss lecture, but i was so freaking tired that i just cldnt go. darn.

need to stop missing lectures or it'll ruin my good girl image. lol!

now i'm over at drew's room, printing my (insert bad adjective here) HL815 essay. gotta hand it up later. meanwhile, im doing my best to fiddle with my mac, installing photoshop and stuff.

dont think i am going for cheer later, dont feel too good. i think i need to recover from my crazy-crazy sleeping schedules for the past week, im perpetually a walking zombie + panda now o.O

need to seriously settle down and balance all my stuff lol! and maybe spend more time with my friends (i miss you guys!)

cant wait for this weekend; hope its gonna be fun!

LOVES;

-all that has happened now seems like a distant blur, what is happening seems like a whirlwind, what is going to happen seems like a hazy uncertainty; how am i to know which path to take?

my first post(:

2009-10-06T15:39:00.007+08:00

hello (:

this is kinda like my first official post

ever since i decided to get a blog... again. been ages since i stopped blogging cos i felt that blogging was kinda pointless (couldnt really say alot of personal stuff anyway) but well, here's another try at it!

Dying these few days! totally totally OVERWHELMED with assignments lol! ever since cheer camp last week (sat-tues), i have been trying hard to chiong all my assignments for this week, till now, im still chionging(:

-com203 reflective essay (finally completed,handed up today)

-com204 broadcast report (completed, handing up tonight! hope i dont forget)

-com205 speech presentation (finished yesterday)

-some twitter assignment (completely forgot, deadline over. oh shit)

-HL815 essay about relationship of art and reality. (apparently due tmr, 50% of final grade, and sth i have absolutely no idea about. damn)

-project work HP102 meeting tmr (haven't prepare

d..)

-project work com205 meeting thurs (ditto)

discipline!!

swamped with cheerleading trainings, must learn how to manage my time better, or i swear im gonna become a walking panda.

really wish i could become more flexible. guess i gotta work hard at it. ((:

(some of my cheer teammates, love you guys ! )

must keep focused on the things i must achieve, its so easy to get distracted.

-what i want may not be what i need (:

having a relatively okay day so far, other than being shit tired! met z for lunch, hanging out with drew, ken and the rest in sch now, waiting for the next lecture.

i absolutely have to start (and not stop) working on HL815 (:

thats it for me now, maybe drop another (more incoherent) post tonight (:

loves

p.S! i signed up for adult ballet today! so proud of myself(:

hellO!!

2009-10-05T15:00:00.001+08:00

HELLO!!

test

2009-09-24T13:33:00.000+08:00

test!!!test!!