hello(:
im surprisingly free today! it feels realllly good, to be without the hassle and rushing of trying to complete overwhelming things that seem never-ending. yay!
slept really long yesterday, guess i needed those hours of sleep badly. slept from 6 plus pm to 11.30pm, then took a bath and slept again from 130am till about 8am! good huh? thank goodness for that!
today, like i said, is pretty good. went for dental early, z accompanied me there lol! if he didnt, i probably would have been late and skipped lecture again. but well, i made it to lecture! had to spend $18 on a cab back though ( i really need to start a "cab diary"; i think all my money is disappearing there! bad bad bad!) haha, after that, had project meeting and all. so yupp, currently in my room, blasting the music to attempt to drown out the sounds of drilling (ugh)
reread that letter. quite emo for awhile after that. knowing that something you thought that would last is already gone. it's really too late. all those ideals, those wants, those hopes and dreams, were destroyed.
When you tear up a piece of paper, no matter how you paste it back together, it will never be the same.
if i pretended everything was okay, would things be back to normal? all those things you said, why now? why not then? when i pleaded with you, why not then? i take my share of responsibility, i don't blame you, i really don't. but it really is too late. im not indifferent. it hurts me too. but i'm not turning back.
yupp. that was my emo-rant. lol. anyway, found a nice song today! by backstreet boys : masquerade
check it out!
"yearning, i'm yearning for the one to steal my eyes, wanna play in this game of disguise..its a masquerade"
it's a bit like life isn't it? everybody has their masks on, you don't see the real them till they take off that mask.
LOVES (:
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